"A small rock holds back a great wave."

Today was day two of trying to come off of all the hormones and pills. It's been so painful, literally. My depression started to get really bad after I got home today from school. I noticed that when I'm around family my stress level goes way up. When I'm around my Grandfather, it's even higher. He's been bullying me all day long, and it's all I can do not to go off on him. Who does he think he is? My back hurts...

When I came home I felt really peaceful, and fell asleep for a while. Then Gram turned the TV on and all hell broke loose inside me. I became tired and wide awake at the same time, the peace inside me left. I became anxious, and annoyed.

I noticed when I tell stuff about my day to my family if I tell just how it happened it's not the same as some of my other relatives who lie about the truth to make it seem more interesting. I noticed that I have done that too...That I've lied to make the event seem more appealing. I wish I would feel confident about my life events enough to not lie sometimes.