all i really want

It’s a bad day again, it didn't start out that way but in the last two hours I've been really depressed and tired. All I can think about is having what I need when I need it, and not worrying about my "illness." I had a dream that I woke up from my nap on the couch to this wonderful man kissing me. He asked me what he could do for me. I told him what I wanted was to sleep there while he went to rent a room at a nice hotel, and went shopping for all my favorite snack foods, bought me my favorite shampoo and body wash and lotion, and razors, and toothpaste, and a new head for my battery operated toothbrush. He got big comfy pillows and sateen sheets in green. He left me to go out and get all that, then came back and woke me up with another kiss, picked me up and carried me to the car and drove to the hotel and then he carried me to the room. What happened after that ... nothing I desire to mention - but its fun to think about. :)